I thought I liked you alot.

And that's where I was wrong.

We kissed , There were no sparks.
How sad.

You touched my face ,
I remembered him.

You smelled of some scent ,
That only brought back memories of how much I loved his <3

We said goodbye.

I realized everything then.
You're not for me.

I want him back more than anything.
But at the same time , I want something better.

Mostly I just want him back <3

I apologize for misleading you ..

Time makes it hard to breathe ..

Memories of you haunt me.
Each day and every night.
Sometimes I feel like I'm alright.
I think I can do this.
But then it all rushes back.
It breaks me from the inside out.
The more I try to forget you ,
The harder it gets.
I am never to sure how to handle it.
I cry , I write.
Nothing helps.
Everyday and night is the exact same.
I am constantly consumed ,
By what we used to be.
Sometimes I feel as though ,
It was my easy breath of happiness.
Now it's all swallowing me.
As if I did something wrong.
Please don't tell me I let you down too.

I try to make things better with you.

- but I don't think you love me anymore

I can't do this anymore ..

All I do is sit here.
And think about everything that used to be right ,
That is now gone.
It's really hard to wrap my mind around it sometimes

We thought we could get through anything.
Everything.

Look how wrong we were.

I don't even care anymore.
I just want to forget it all.

So please stay out of my dreams.

And I'll do my best to forget you.

Where to go from here ..

I've lost all touch with sanity , it seems.
I used to have things figured out.
Well at least a little.
I used to know who I wanted.
That's never been a thing I've been able to decide on.
Then I found love , and it ran away after a good "go".
Now I seem to be back where i started.
My emotions are always spinning out of control.
Here and there ..
None of it makes sense anymore.
All I've ever wanted , was a place to call my own.
Well , someone.
But I'm far from deserving that.
Or anything at all that happens to be close to it.
I used to be able to just let go of things.
For some reason , I can't seem to this time.
I think I'll just be alone for awhile.
It leaves everyone else better off.
After all , I'm not really being too fair to anyone.
The day my love ranaway , was the day I lost my sanity.
We were never too good of friends anyways I suppose.

The one that I adore c:

He's my July.
I love his summer.

I gave him my heart ,
And ever since then ..
I knew I could never be anyone elses.

It only took two weeks to realize I loved him.
And ever since then ,
I haven't stopped for one second.

It's such an amazing feeling.
But it'll be so sad if it's just thrown away.


Don't let our worst get the best of us.

I miss you , ya know (:

I'm still here waiting for you.
I have been all along.

-please come back to me &
Love me even more than you did before <3

I don't know what happened ..

You came out of the most nowhere spot possible.
I still can't believe it.
To me , you're much too good to be mine.
I'm the messiest of all possible messes ,
And as much as I like the thought of us ,
I can make you my first promise ;
I'm not the one you want. I'll only disappoint you.
That could never be more true , especially at a time like this.
I'm trying to pull myself back together ,
But I don't see it happening anytime soon ,
Possibly ever.
Some things break , and they don't get fixed.
It's sad , but true.
But the thing is ..
I haven't smiled in forever.
Not a genuine one anyways

Well then you came along <3
there's so many ways for this to turn out ,
Let's see how it goes .. :)

Time for my game face , I assume.

Some days are harder than most.
But I can do this.
At least , that's what I tell myself.
I have to get through this.
Because in the end , it'll make me stronger <3
I just get so lost sometimes.
I don't know whether I should miss you.
Or if I should just forget your name.
I gave you my all , until I had nothing left.
That took alot on my part ,
But it seems as though it wasn't enough for you.

-it helps me along , once I've realized I deserve so much better <3

I never imagined .

It breaks me. Nothing turned out how it was supposed to. I mean , this is what I wanted. It just gets really hard sometimes. Only when I'm alone. It all comes rushing back. Everything <- I miss it. Well honestly , I miss how we were. Then you changed. Or rather , you showed me who you really are. Guess they weren't lieing when they assumed love will make us blind. In my offense , I gave you my all .. Until I had nothing left. And you just gave it all away. You're acting just like he did all those months before us. You won't find a solution in following his actions. But , I know in your heart , you saw how much he hurt me by doing what he did. So you saw it as an opportunity. To hurt me as much as you possibly could. Everyday , I feel like you're stabbing me in the heart. And you're not even here. This distance between us , has never hurt me so much