Where to go from here ..

I've lost all touch with sanity , it seems.
I used to have things figured out.
Well at least a little.
I used to know who I wanted.
That's never been a thing I've been able to decide on.
Then I found love , and it ran away after a good "go".
Now I seem to be back where i started.
My emotions are always spinning out of control.
Here and there ..
None of it makes sense anymore.
All I've ever wanted , was a place to call my own.
Well , someone.
But I'm far from deserving that.
Or anything at all that happens to be close to it.
I used to be able to just let go of things.
For some reason , I can't seem to this time.
I think I'll just be alone for awhile.
It leaves everyone else better off.
After all , I'm not really being too fair to anyone.
The day my love ranaway , was the day I lost my sanity.
We were never too good of friends anyways I suppose.