I never imagined .

It breaks me. Nothing turned out how it was supposed to. I mean , this is what I wanted. It just gets really hard sometimes. Only when I'm alone. It all comes rushing back. Everything <- I miss it. Well honestly , I miss how we were. Then you changed. Or rather , you showed me who you really are. Guess they weren't lieing when they assumed love will make us blind. In my offense , I gave you my all .. Until I had nothing left. And you just gave it all away. You're acting just like he did all those months before us. You won't find a solution in following his actions. But , I know in your heart , you saw how much he hurt me by doing what he did. So you saw it as an opportunity. To hurt me as much as you possibly could. Everyday , I feel like you're stabbing me in the heart. And you're not even here. This distance between us , has never hurt me so much