Time makes it hard to breathe ..

Memories of you haunt me.
Each day and every night.
Sometimes I feel like I'm alright.
I think I can do this.
But then it all rushes back.
It breaks me from the inside out.
The more I try to forget you ,
The harder it gets.
I am never to sure how to handle it.
I cry , I write.
Nothing helps.
Everyday and night is the exact same.
I am constantly consumed ,
By what we used to be.
Sometimes I feel as though ,
It was my easy breath of happiness.
Now it's all swallowing me.
As if I did something wrong.
Please don't tell me I let you down too.

I try to make things better with you.

- but I don't think you love me anymore